coming out of hibernation

it's been a month. a hectic, rather uncreative month.

but finally, after almost resigning to the sun's decision to altogether abandon northern utah, i saw blue sky and budding trees, awoke to frantic birds in the branches outside my window, wore a jacket instead of a coat, ate salad instead of soup, and subtracted one blanket from my bedding equation.  it's still cold enough to require bundling to walk to campus, but not quite enough to demand a coat, scarf, and boots to run down to the mailbox.  although snow soaked through my shoes again this afternoon, the day started out much like what i think spring might look like here.  the world is waking up, at last!

the unpredictable (but undeniably improving) weather has aroused my spontaneity.  last weekend i wore magenta pants for the first time in almost a year.  for the past week, upon arriving home, i fly into laughing fits that end in three to four people sprawled on the couch and table close to tears (really for no reason at all).  i start homework only to convince myself that something else is more important today... like blogging.  i listen to kate nash.  i have an irrepressible urge to watch sappy chick flicks (yes, i watched the proposal twice last week and had a flashback with disney's beauty and the beast).  the only explanation for all of this ridiculous behavior is this: the sun is waking me up, and giving me spring fever. although personally, as ridiculous as magenta pants appear, they are actually a very liberating item of clothing to own.

i'm finding the need to console myself often - really, it's okay to watch a movie.  after all, i earned a 92% on my last test, and so on.  it makes me feel more productive (and combats the urge to drop out of school and start a perpetual spring break.  i've made several different 5-year life plans, budgeted for the rest of my life, cleaned my room from top to bottom, and made some new goals (blog post at least once a week, sleep for eight hours a night, make myself three full meals a day, etc.).  but even with all this general productivity, i am still counting down the days until the end of winter semester. 11 class periods left of tuesday/thursday classes, 11!  and i feel justified in doing so.  if byu won't grant me at least one week of spring break, i am STILL going to blog, i am going to sleep, i am going to leave all the windows open. and  i am going to wear magenta pants.